Spring Break

So it has been a few days since I've written anything. Almost 5 days actually. Quick summary to catch up...

Friday:

- Last day of school before Spring break.

- Went to school (boring).

- Went to the teacher center and made a poster.

- Had practice. It was nice and easy

- Went to Jenna's had a dance party. It was SICK!

Saturday:

- I can't remember what I did Saturday. OH!

- All I remember is that I went to the movies with Mj, Kyle, Joe, Becca, Kelsey, Pearce, and Alex. We saw "She's Out of My League" It was so stupid that it was hilarious. Just the stuff they said and did was great.

Sunday:

- Palm Sunday!

- Went to the 9:30am traditional service to hear my mom's children's choir sing.

- Went to Max & Erma's with my family.

- Played some basketball when I got home

- Went over to Kelsey's house and watched "Finding Nemo" and...we watched another movie but I can't remember.

Monday:

- Slept basically all day

- Went to see Mr. Michael Leather

- Chatted it up with Katherine for awhile

- Watched "The Truman Show" for the first time EVER!

- Basically had a super awesome time. :]

Tuesday:

- Woke up

- It was pouring out

- Taped off my kitchen it hopes to start painting, but we are painting tomorrow

- Got all my Bloomsburg stuff I ordered! YEAHHH! I was soo excited!!!

- And now I'm here.

What a uneventful Spring Break. Nothing super, out of this world, has happened yet. Don't get me wrong I've had a GREAT spring break so far. I wouldn't change anything but every Spring Break someone outrageous has happened, and I guess I'm just looking for that outrageous thing to happen. Maybe it won't. Hmmm, oh well.

OH! So there is this one individual I've been pretty close with, and recently I feel like I've just become, we've just become a million times closer with each other. Its the most amazing feeling ever. I felt like we were sort of close before but I now know we are still growing closer. Ahhh, just something I needed to say : ]

Break, Break, Break, Break Your Heart.

Today was A LOT better than yesterday, it everyone way (mostly). Yesterday just wasn't good it you couldn't tell, I didn't even write yesterday it was so bad. But it got better at night. Thank you! ;] Anyways, today was a lot better for me than yesterday, but for a lot of people it wasn't very good. I noticed and heard a lot of things today about...

RELATIONSHIPS.

It was crazy. At track today this one girl Kristina was talking about her breakup with her boyfriend Ryan that took place 4, maybe 5 months ago? I'm not exactly sure but she was talking about her ex Ryan, and her current love interest named Casey. Anyways...she was telling this other girl Kelsey about how Ryan had cheated on her yet they were still dating. First thought, how could you stay with someone who purposely cheated on you. But continuing on, she told Kelsey how she knew something wasn't right when she went to visit Ryan, she knew something was up. She was talking about this "vibe" how when she was in his presence she knew that something had happened, something bad; she knew he cheated without him even having to tell her. Kristina was saying all these terrible things about what he did to her during their relationship but at the end of every sentence she would say "But he was really sweet..." I still couldn't believe what I was hearing. She said that he told her he was "in love" with her. How does he know what love is? As she was telling this story I starting thinking about how powerful the word love is and how powerful saying in love truly is.

It made me think back to past relationships. There have been 3 guys ever I have said "I love you too". Yes I did say, "I love you" to 3 guys but I mean it as the I love you as a friend, the same love that all my friends have. I just think I said it to them so they really knew I did, that I cared about them. Plus, I really think "I love you" and "I'm in love with you" mean two completely different things. I believe you can love many people, but only be in love with one. Yes, I love many people but No, I have never been in love with someone. Not yet at least. I cannot wait for the day I find my true love. Which brings me to my next point.

Track today, after Kristina was telling Kelsey about her love life, Jamal, Scott, and I were on the runway practicing. Prom came up, then that led to past relationships, then that led to current relationships. I said to Jamal and Scott, "I have found my soul mate....yet he doesn't know it yet". Haha, they chuckled at that one. The next question they both asked was, "Who is it?" My response, "I don't know... yet" They looked at me really funny after that one. No I haven't yet found my soul mate and I can't tell you what his name is but I do believe I have one. Somewhere out there is Jessica Gamble's soul mate. And I don't know, it could even be someone I already know. Only time can tell... truly. I believe in love at first site, I've talked to many people about this but do you think it could have been love at first site but you don't realize it till later? But then I guess its not really love at first site. Or can it be love at first site yet you don't tell that person til later? That's a tough question I think. I'm still trying to figure it out myself.

Continuing on, I asked Jamal and Scott if either one of them had a girlfriend. Scott said no but Jamal said yes. So he told me about his girlfriend....her name is Courtney, she goes to West Chester East, they have been dating for 11 months, he asked her out on May 8, 2009. Haha, he told me a lot more but anywaysss... He really liked her. I could tell by his body language and how he talked about her. When he was talking, my heart melted. It was so incredibly cute. I'm sure Jamal is a great boyfriend. He seemed like a true gentleman. Lucky girl.

After all this talk about relationships it made me think... I am a sucker for love and love stories. I could sit all day and just read about love stories and each time my heart would melt more and more. Recently a friend shared with me some love stories that his family has gone through; his mother and father, and his grandmother and grandfather. Those are the examples of a love story I want to be in. I know one day I will have a love story of my own to share, but I cannot wait.

Ahhh, that's my sappy story about love. Time to get my essay done my one scholarship application.

Night love bug.

Prom Season is Here

Today has been super duper crazy. I've been in non-stop motion from 6:30am-4:00pm. And I mean non-stop.

Let's start at 12:00am March 23, 2010. Haha, I was still up talking to this guy I absolutely hate...just kidding! :P Last night, technically this morning I was finishing up my other blog. And I totally told myself I was going to go to bed early last night and didn't. :O Ohh well, that never happens anyways. Ok, so here is where my day actually started...

I woke up at 6:30am, read my text messages from that night (I fell asleep, yet again. I apologize) and found out that I managed to call someone at 3:07 am. Like legit, how does that happen? Do you think its a sign? I've been thinking about this all day. Did I purposely make that phone call? Did I leave a message? I'm not sure, but I don't remember that at all. Ok, so I rushed to get ready. I had to be at school by 7am ( I was shooting for 6:45am but that didn't happen) for Captain pictures for Spring sports. It was funny, Emma, Sami, I (they are the other 2 girl Captains for track) were standing waiting for our pictures and we were talking about how hard it was going to be to make a serious face. The photographer, Mr. Soler, told us he all wanted us to look serious. That is almost IMPOSSIBLE for us to do. Oh well, we got it done.

After pictures I rushed back to my car, grabbed about 10 tuxes and ran inside. Then had to change quickly and headed off to 1st period. That class f l e w by, which was SO nice cause that class usually takes the longest. After 1st period I ran upstairs with Libby and we started getting ready for the prom fashion show. It took us 2nd and 3rd period to get ready. Haha, its sad how long it takes us all to get ready. Anyways, PROM FASHION SHOW IS HERE! It was so good and a ton of fun! Pictures below.

Ashley and I

Everyone
The girls that made this show happen (plus Jordyn)
Becca and I. This is probably my favorite picture of the day
Mr. Andrew McLaughlin, my escort for the show.

I really think it went well and hopefully everyone had a fun time. I know I did : ]

So, after the prom fashion show was over we all headed upstairs changed and went to our classes. I had English, then left for Teacher Academy. Nothing exciting really happened there except I wrote 4 pages in an hour, and managed to turn in my project on time. Yeahh! And I got out early which was SWEET, but I felt terrible. I really wasn't feeling good this afternoon. : / So I went home for a little, relaxed, went to practice for an hour, left early, came home and slept till about 8. Woke up, ate, did homework, and now I'm sitting here, talking to you, and eating ice cream! : ] Delicious.

Bedtime soon!

Nighttt love.

"Your sweet moon-beam,

the smell of you in every single dream I dream.
I knew when we collided,

you're the one I have decided,
Who's one of my kind." Soul Sister by Train

TOTALLY stuck in my head.

J'espère que vous ne laissez jamais...

J'espère vous voir cela demain et je sais que c'est à vous. Michael, êtes-vous sont incroyables. Je ne peux jamais semblent trouver les mots exacts pour décrire comment je me sens à votre sujet. Your so amazing est de nombreuses façons différentes. Vous êtes différents. Extrêmement différentes. Et vraiment différente, alors que j'ai jamais bien. Votre doux, aimable, social, outgoing, friendly, Hugger grand Kisser bon, respectueux, intéressé. Je sais que vous êtes probablement extrêmement choqués de m'entendre dire certaines de ces choses, mais je pense vraiment que vous soyez. Au moins autour de moi. Je le pense. Je ne peux pas vous dire une crois que je n'aime pas chez vous. Oui, nous avons des différences, mais ces différences ne m'ont pas fait comme vous pas moins. Pas un seul bit. Je sais que nous avons dit avant, mais je suis vraiment reconnaissant Dieu vous a mis dans ma vie. C'est absolument le bon moment aussi. Vous avez été la première personne que j'ai mis les yeux sur moi quand je me suis présenté à Innabah et vous avez été aussi le dernier. Nous avons fait un long chemin depuis lors. Je sens que je vous ai jamais connus mais il a seulement été de 2 semaines sans que je me sens comme je sais tant de choses sur vous. Mais nous sommes encore à apprendre les uns des autres. Les mots ne peuvent pas expliquer comment je ressens pour toi Michael. Mais je veux vous dire merci. Je vous remercie d'être venu dans ma vie, je vous remercie de vous, je vous remercie de me prouver pas tous les gars sont les mêmes, il ya au moins un mec là-bas qui connaît vraiment la façon de traiter une fille. Je vous remercie d'amour.

Varani

So today has been quite an adventure!

School was swell for once:

1st period: Sociology (Mrs. Baliotti) - I didn't talk at all. My teacher talked about stereotypes and how MOST children who are the youngest sibling in their family are the most spoiled, if you're the oldest child you usually get the most work and get pushed to do a lot of stuff, and if you're the middle child no one cares about you. That's basically what she said. I don't agree with it at all. Yeah, occasionally their is a child that happens to be the youngest in their family and is spoiled, but I don't think that's how they all are.

2nd period: Band (Mr. Bennett) - Today my band director, Mr. Bennett, took majority of the period going over what we can do for community service. In 2011 the marching band with be participating in the Rose Bowl Parade that takes place in Pasadena, California and it is going to be MAD expensive so in order to lower the cost of the trip everyone has to do a certain amount of community service. I'm so pumped for this trip, I think it will be an amazing experience but it hasn't been set in stone yet if seniors will be allowed to go or not on this trip. I think we should, I mean we contributed to the reason why our band got chosen to go in the first place. So I definitely think we should be able to go. Hopefully we will find out soon (ish).

3rd Period: Probability & Statistics (Mrs. McKinelly) - WAS AWESOME! My teacher is.... kind of slow. It takes her half the period to just CHECK homework. Haha. Anyways, today she walked around the classroom for about 20 minutes until one student asked, "Are we doing anything today?" and my teacher replied saying, "We were going to take notes, but I can't seem to find where I put them. So no, we won't be doing anything". SWEET! I just sat and talked with some friends for the rest of the period.

4th Period: Environmental Science (Mrs. DiMarcella) - Ahhh. I hate this class. It's so boring and so easy yet because its so easy its hard. Hopefully that makes at least a little bit of sense? Today my regular teacher was out (Thank God. She's terrible) but we had a mean substitute. She gave us about 5 pages of hand written notes to take down and then after we were finished with that we had to sit the rest of the period, not talking, and not doing any other work. It was ridiculous. What a waste of time. I have no idea why I took that class. It's an elective class anyways... I thought I would be a good student and take an extra class to boost my GPA but this has ended up being my toughest class. I now wish I didn't take it.

5th Period: English (Mr. Setlock) - In all my years of high school I have always disliked english a lot, but this year, english is probably my favorite class. I absolutely love my teacher, he's really cool and laid back and very understandable. Its refreshing for once. Anyways, today he wasn't there. We had a sub named Mr. Mika, who we've had before. We were suppose to watch this movie but it was super boring so Mr. Mika turned it off and allowed us to talk. So in our english room there are tables and couches and stuff. We don't have assigned seats but for some reason everyone always sits in the same spot. Like for example, everyday it goes in this order from the far side of the room: Kyle, Kate, Madi, Katie, Lauren, Skyler, Krista, Bianca, Eveliina (Who is a foreign exchange student from Finland), Elin (Who is a foreign exchange student from Sweden), Justin, Eddy, Kevin, Me, Tommy, Kessan, Casey. That was the outside perimeter, and for the inside it goes Cody, Kevin, Nate, Devin, Steph, and Victor. Usually. At least that is how it was today. Anyways, we were all bored so Eddy decided to go through my bookbag and organize it (like he does almost everyday) and today he decided to go through my phone as well. It was funny, he was going through my pictures and randomly decided to yell, "Jess, you have a picture of a penis?!". It was sooo funny but SO not true. He just said it to see people's reactions. Ha, that class is always a lot of fun.

6th Period: Lunch - ate my lunch, printed out an essay for my scholarship applications, turned them in and headed home for a little bit.

Teacher Academy: Today we had a field trip to CCIU (Chester County Intermediate Unit) where we went into the Teacher Center and made posters and stuff. I was in a rush because I had to leave 10 minutes early and I totally messed up my poster. I was going to make a jeopardy board and my idea was to laminate it and then cut above the pockets so that you could put like an index card inside of it, but I totally glued down the entire piece of paper instead of just the outside edge so yeah... I have to go back this week and redo it. Oh well, I like making stuff. It's fun. Takes time, but its fun.

SCHOOL IS DONE! Well for the day at least.

After school I had rehearsal for my schools Prom Fashion Show that is going to take place tomorrow, March 23, 2010 @ 10am in DHSW Auditorium. It's going to be sweet. After the rehearsal I ran to Varani Formal Wear, in Malvern to pick up all the guys tuxes with my friend Bennett and BOY, was I in for a surprise... When we arrived we saw our friend Max who was there trying on his tux. He was such a hoot! I met a girl who works at Varani who is thinking about going to Bloom, which is pretty sick. I met Mr. Varani for the first time. He is AMAZING! So funny! Bennett was trying on his tux and asked Mr. Varani if he had a white hat he could try on and Mr. Varani said, "No. You'd look like a dick!" I laughed so hard. Never in my life have I ever seen a mid-aged man say "dick". It was quite surprising. Anyways, Mr. Varani offered me a job which was pretty awesome and made me feel really good but unfortunately I had to tell him no since I was leaving for school soon. BUT he did give me a free t-shirt for being such a sport and picking up the tuxes and then having to deal with all the boys. Ha, it was a fun time though. Below are some pictures of the boysss...

So since I've been home I've just been working on getting everything ready for tomorrow, and kind of been stressing about prom (like usual) and stressing about this project I have tomorrow that I don't have complete. Well going through all these things in my mind my phone rang. I was thinking to myself...it could be one of 3 people. 1st person this kid I don't really like talking to, 2nd this girl from my class asking about work, 3 this super amazing guy that I really love talking too. Ding, ding, ding! Score! It was person # 3. The one I was actually hoping that text message was from. I owned my phone and just couldn't help but smile. "You = Gorgeous. Just saying ;-)" It was perfect timing, I was headed down hill because of all this work I have to do and that just gave me an extreme boost. It made me a happy. Its amazing how the littlest of things can mean so much. All he said was 4 words but yet those 4 words meant so much to me, and made my entire night, and my entire day. It was perfect. The smallest things mean so much. You don't need HUGE and expensive things to make an impression. Even 4 simple words can do just as much.

Well, I'm off to bed shortly. Today has been wonderful. Not as good as 2 days ago, but definitely better than yesterday. :]

Nighty night.

(<------- I'm not quite sure how to move that picture up. )

P.S Someone PLEASE remind me that for the year 2011 that I want to make a photo journal. Picture and description for everyday of the year 2011. I wanted to this but that didn't happen. I'm kind of bummed about it but definitely next year.

....I can't stop thinking about you <+3

Miles

You say your life sucks
No one could have worse luck
Every thing seems to go wrong
Your name should be Murphy

Your beds a new geometric shape
Cause every side is the wrong side
The showers always is cold
And you’re always out of milk
It’s a new day, but still feels like a Monday

They ask, “Is it just
One of those days?”
You can’t help but answer
It’s just my luck, just my life

You seem to always trip
Never fail to fall
Only ever seeing dark
All day, every day

It tends to rain on your birthday
And you never have a parking spot
When you look into tomorrow
You accept it will be like today

Dude, just open your eyes
For all of the bad there is good
For every wrong there is a right
You just tend to stay one side

So come on over and see the light
With so much positive within you reach
You must need glasses not to notice it
Life is good, it might be great
It just depends how you see it

It's 12:15am and I'm suppose to be writing my essay but I needed to take a minute and write. So I have this friend that I've known since 2nd grade. Interesting story actually, he moved away after 2nd grade and we didn't talk for about 10 years maybe? And then one day we found each other on facebook and have been talking every since. I consider him one of my best friends. Truly, best friends. I tell him everything when I can. And I mean EVERYTHING. I never have to whole back. He lives in New Jersey now and doesn't know anyone at my school and I don't know anyone at his so its easy for us to talk to each other about stuff that's going on in our lives without having to worry about drama starting and what not.

Anyways, Miles is quite the poet. He's amazing. Everyday he sends me a new poem. The one above is one he sent me today. I read it and said, as usual, "Miles this is fantastic" and today I got a very surprising response. His response was, "I wrote it last night when I was drunk". Hmm... well that was interesting. I still like it but I was shocked at how much concentration he had. A lot of the poems Miles write really apply to my life. It's crazy. Sometimes it feels like he writes the poems I wish I could write. He will be famous one day.

Before Miles had his own website with his poems listed on it, I used to write down all the poems he wrote in my agenda so during the day when I'm feeling down I could just open it up and read one.

My favorite one of all is the following...

They can tell by your smile

that you're such a love child.

And every man in this place,

would love to be in your space.

As the night settles down,

you'd meet a lot of clever clowns.

And I'll do my best,

to be better than the rest.

The first time I read this I cried. I wanted someone to write this to me. Miles did not write this for me. He wrote it for the girl he loved. He just shared it with me, but it is still one of my favorites. Its amazing though. Every poem he wrote applies to me in some way. Its insane. Anyways, that's the story of Mr. Miles Camp. He will be famous one day and I will be so thrilled to say I'm friends with a famous poet : ]

On another note... scholarship essays. They take so much time. A friend of mine said "Time is money. I'm spending time filling out applications to get money". Haha. She's great. I'm stumped on this one. All I had to do it write about what or who has influenced me to seek further education. One word: mom. My mom has been my main influence, yet I cannot write 1 whole page about it. I just can't. I can't get my thoughts out of my head and on to the paper. It's frustrating me. All I need is a few more sentences yet I have no idea what more to write. I just need to suck it up and get it finished.

Alright, going to finish it now.

Now...

Goodnight,

Jess

Ahhh. I can't go yet. I have something on my mind and don't know who to go too. I can't even go to Miles about this because he wouldn't understand. And it's killing me.

....wait. I know exactly who to go to. He's always there for me and helps me get through everything.

Alright, now I am going for sure.

Night.

Incredible

Wow. Where to begin with today. For beginners, I spent today with this AMAZING person at Eastern University. I had a blast!

First: My drive to see Mr. Leather. I was doing alright in my car, windows down, music playing, until I came up on the "Valley Forge Road" exit. When I was that I got really nervous, butterflies in my stomach, everything, because as soon as I saw that sign I knew I was really close. I pulled onto Eagle Road, then made a left at the second entrance. Parked my car and called Michael. I was here.

Second: I began walking towards his dorm and only seconds later I saw this guy walking towards me. I knew exactly who it was and I couldn't help but stop and say to myself, "This is really happening. I can't believe it". I was so incredible happy to see him, and hug him. It had been a few weeks since we had seen each. I was so happy : ]

Third: After talking a few minutes we started walking to the town of Wayne where we got a bite to eat at Cosi (Which was my first time going there), I learned about the game 'Spot' (You yell "SPOT" when you see a yellow car), oh and that Michael doesn't like tacos ( I know! What the heck right?!) Haha, its amazing how much you can learn in so little time. But we walked around Wayne for a little while. Wayne is extremely beautiful and has a nice little town with plenty of shops and all. It was really cute.

Fourth, Fifth, Sixth, etc...: After Wayne we heading back to the campus and had to make one stop before we got back. We stopped by the creek. It was beautiful, all the little creeks that run along the campus. We stopped at this one little sandbar where I was taught, the right way, how to skip a rock. I could totally skip rocks all day long if I could. It never gets old, I don't know why, but it just doesn't. Ha, Michael made a little walk way and managed to walk around the creek to the other side of land. It was really nice over there, we saw about 10 turtles, a few geese, the sun was shining, and it was just beautiful all around. Shortly after the creek we headed back to campus where I got a personal tour of the campus and I met a ton of people. Including: Steve, Eric, Bethany, Jeff, Kristen, Erin, Kaylee, Paul, Matt, Chelsea, Katherine, Julie, Heather, Ben, Ryan, Andrew, and Dan. I'm sure I'm missing a few names, I apologize. Everyone was really nice and sweet. I love meeting new people so this was perfect. We headed back to his dorm for a bite and just sat and talked. That never, ever gets old. There is so much still to learn about him so talking was nice. Later on we headed to the dining hall to get dinner where I saw Ms. Cassie Miller! Cassie was Student Council President at my school last year, it was really comforting for like 3 seconds to see a familiar face. I said hi, we chatted, and then off we went. After dinner we went and sat on this ledge by the pond/lake thingy that was shaded like a heart. Ever have one of those moments that's just perfect, and you know you'll never forget it? I had some of those moments tonight. We were sitting along the pond/ lake thingy, the sun was setting for the night, the sun was bright on the water, the warmth was beating on my face, I was facing the lake, and Michael was facing the opposite way, we were sitting next to each other and at one moment we just turned and looked at each other while talking. And for some reason, that moment right there, when we were looking at each other was perfect. Everything about it. The setting, the timing, it was great. :] It was about 7: 30pm when we headed back to his dorm and popped in a movie I had never seen before, Transformers, the 2nd one. The movie was good, the time we were watching the movie was even better. There's something about tickling each other that just gets me. It's so much fun and so cute. And that's exactly what happened. There was one more thing that happened tonight that was perfect. It feel right. It didn't feel wrong, it felt just right. That, I will not forget either.

Overall today was everything I thought it would be and more. I can't help but smile everything I think about something that happened today, or the people I met, or the person I had just spent 10 hours with straight. And you know whats funny? I'd do it all over again it a heart beat. I just had that good of a time. I am so thankful God put this person in my life at the time he did. He's truly amazing, and everything I've ever wanted in a guy, and in a friend. I really hope he's in my life for quite sometime. I really do.

But it's getting late, I better go to bed. Thank you for everything today and everything that is yet to come.

St. Patrick's Day!

HAPPY

ST. PATRICK'S
DAY!!!

Enjoy these pictures? This is my lovely family. We're goofy. It's late. Today was just AMAZING. So I've been sitting here just thinking, and this song popped into my head and these are the lyrics...

What is this feeling so sudden and new?

I felt the moment I laid eyes on you

my pulse is rushing

my head is reeling

my face is flushing

what is this feeling fervid as a flame,

does it have a name, yeeesss,

loathing unadulterated loathing

for your face

your voice

Your clothing

lets just say I loathe it all.

Every little trait however small,

makes my very flesh begin to crawl, with simple utter loathing

theres a strange exilhiration in such total

detestation. It's so pure so strong

though i do admit it came on fast

still i do believe that it can last

and i will be loathing,

loathing you my whole life long

No relation. Its just been stuck in my head.

Spring

Spring is amazing. I know it officially doesn't start until Saturday but today is absolutely

b e a u t i f u l.

Saturday, March 20, is the first day of Spring and it is going to be a MARVELOUS day. I can not wait, I am so excited for Saturday for many different reasons. Anyways, school... I'm sitting in class at CAT waiting to get started. This program has been interesting this year. I really had no idea what I wanted to be when I grow up but my mom gave me this idea of being a teacher, so I applied for this program called, "Teacher Academy" which is a program for students who have interest in become a teacher and it gives them experience actually in the field. Anyways, at first I was only interested, but now I'm really interested. I love being in front of students, I love being part of the reason they learn. It'd be a lot of fun but I know it will be a ton of work. But I would really like to be part of a child's life and maybe even influence it a little bit.

Next thing is next, today has been pretty good so far. It's weird I've had a pretty good day so far. This morning went pretty well, started my morning with a very up lifting, and heart-warming text message, which made me feel absolutely incredible. Sociology we watched The Breakfast Club, then Band which was extremely easy, Prob/Stat which was fun! My friend Quinton* is absolutely hilarious, Environmental Science we watched The Lorax, and English we meditated and my teacher played his wooden flute for us. It was actually incredibly relaxing, I never thought it would work but I felt so relieved afterwards. I just let go of all the tension in my body, which felt amazing. I thought it was weird for people to meditate even though I had never even tried it before. It really does help you think, and relax, and relieve all the tension in your body. It's a great tool to relieve stress. It's amazing the things you can learn by just trying.

Track practice today went SO WELL! I'm really pleased with how my day went. It started off well as it was and got better throughout the day. A major reason for that is the temperature. I believe so. It was so warm today. One girl even said to me today, "You seem really happy today". Which I was! I was in a good mood. It was wonderful and I'm sure the day will finish out good too.

Have a good night!

P.S Above is one of my favorite pictures I've ever taken of the East Stradsburg Train. ALSO, I resulted my prom issue. Well, the money part of my prom issue : ]

First Day

So this is my very first blog, ever. A recently new friend of mine kept mentioning "his blog" and I finally found out what he was talking about. I decided I would make a blog also. I really think this will help me. I always have a really hard time sharing my feels and thoughts with people and because of that I've let things build up to a certain point and then I break down. It needs to stop. If not one of these days it's going to build up too high and I won't know what to do. However, I thought writing would be a good way of getting some of my emotions out; the good and the bad.

First thing is first: Prom.

EVERYONE is freaking out about it, me included. I think so many of us are afraid of not having dates. Which I believe is a fair thing to be worried about, I mean it's our senior prom. We want to go, we want to have a date, and we want to have fun. I think I am a generally well liked person, I'm not afraid that someone won't ask me because they don't like me, but I'm more of the "friends" type of girl with majority of my guy friends. The girl they like comes first and then me. Which is why I don't think I'll be asked. Maybe I'll be asked, but not by someone I really want to go with. It's my final prom, I want to go with someone who I will have a fun time with and he will too. That's the tough part. There's been this one guy I kind of want to go with. I just recently met him but he's fantastic and I truly believe I would have a good time and so would he. But it's tough to get someone from a different school to go. Mainly the money factor. Prom is extremely expensive which totally sucks. For your own prom its understandable, but for someone else's... not so much. I wish there was something I can do because at this exact point in time I really want to go with him. Maybe it's too soon to decide that though. Oh well. If its meant to happen it will. If not, I got to figure out who I want to go with.

Speaking of money: College.

Why does everything have to be so expensive? It's ridiculous! I understand why it is so expensive but it really stinks. I spent about an hour of my night filling out some scholarship applications. Got all of them filled out minus the essays. That will take a little bit of time. I'm terrible at writing as it is so writing essays was not fun at all.

Relationships.

They are so incredibly difficult. Relationships with a boyfriend, relationships with parents, relationships with friends. It is crazy. When of the biggest things I miss from Virginia is my friends and the relationships we had. We were so incredibly close. I knew everything about my friends and they knew everything about me. I absolutely love the new friends I've made since moving here though. I would do anything for them. But we are all on many different levels that sometimes it's tough to be honest and truly ourselves around each other. And that I think is a huge thing. My group of friends aren't always themselves. I know something about one friend that another friend doesn't know. We are constantly censoring ourselves on what we say and do. I'm really hoping that is something we can work on before we part. We need to be accepting of each other and not judge, which to be honest, is a tough thing to do in our world. People are constantly judging each other. I won't deny that I do sometimes, but that is something I'm really trying to work on.

Ahhh, tomorrow is a new day. Maybe things will change.

Goodbye for now.