RELATIONSHIPS.
It was crazy. At track today this one girl Kristina was talking about her breakup with her boyfriend Ryan that took place 4, maybe 5 months ago? I'm not exactly sure but she was talking about her ex Ryan, and her current love interest named Casey. Anyways...she was telling this other girl Kelsey about how Ryan had cheated on her yet they were still dating. First thought, how could you stay with someone who purposely cheated on you. But continuing on, she told Kelsey how she knew something wasn't right when she went to visit Ryan, she knew something was up. She was talking about this "vibe" how when she was in his presence she knew that something had happened, something bad; she knew he cheated without him even having to tell her. Kristina was saying all these terrible things about what he did to her during their relationship but at the end of every sentence she would say "But he was really sweet..." I still couldn't believe what I was hearing. She said that he told her he was "in love" with her. How does he know what love is? As she was telling this story I starting thinking about how powerful the word love is and how powerful saying in love truly is.
It made me think back to past relationships. There have been 3 guys ever I have said "I love you too". Yes I did say, "I love you" to 3 guys but I mean it as the I love you as a friend, the same love that all my friends have. I just think I said it to them so they really knew I did, that I cared about them. Plus, I really think "I love you" and "I'm in love with you" mean two completely different things. I believe you can love many people, but only be in love with one. Yes, I love many people but No, I have never been in love with someone. Not yet at least. I cannot wait for the day I find my true love. Which brings me to my next point.
Track today, after Kristina was telling Kelsey about her love life, Jamal, Scott, and I were on the runway practicing. Prom came up, then that led to past relationships, then that led to current relationships. I said to Jamal and Scott, "I have found my soul mate....yet he doesn't know it yet". Haha, they chuckled at that one. The next question they both asked was, "Who is it?" My response, "I don't know... yet" They looked at me really funny after that one. No I haven't yet found my soul mate and I can't tell you what his name is but I do believe I have one. Somewhere out there is Jessica Gamble's soul mate. And I don't know, it could even be someone I already know. Only time can tell... truly. I believe in love at first site, I've talked to many people about this but do you think it could have been love at first site but you don't realize it till later? But then I guess its not really love at first site. Or can it be love at first site yet you don't tell that person til later? That's a tough question I think. I'm still trying to figure it out myself.
Continuing on, I asked Jamal and Scott if either one of them had a girlfriend. Scott said no but Jamal said yes. So he told me about his girlfriend....her name is Courtney, she goes to West Chester East, they have been dating for 11 months, he asked her out on May 8, 2009. Haha, he told me a lot more but anywaysss... He really liked her. I could tell by his body language and how he talked about her. When he was talking, my heart melted. It was so incredibly cute. I'm sure Jamal is a great boyfriend. He seemed like a true gentleman. Lucky girl.
After all this talk about relationships it made me think... I am a sucker for love and love stories. I could sit all day and just read about love stories and each time my heart would melt more and more. Recently a friend shared with me some love stories that his family has gone through; his mother and father, and his grandmother and grandfather. Those are the examples of a love story I want to be in. I know one day I will have a love story of my own to share, but I cannot wait.
Ahhh, that's my sappy story about love. Time to get my essay done my one scholarship application.
Night love bug.
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